What if everything is Awesome

  I don't want to write today, I only want to draw. I ordered the best pencil kit for me and the best sketchbook for me. I know exactly what I want and what I need. I discovered today that drawing is a huge part of me, of my soul. I have been depriving myself of it for so many years. This last week there wasn’t a day without me longing to draw different things, to visualize through the page my dream self, my dream life. To express the awe for the beauty I see all around. If words could have colours and shape, I would draw swirls of thoughts and ideas, decorated with tiny details, small bugs and butterflies, hummingbirds and flowers, rich-green leaves and twisted roots of tropical trees, all entangled in a dance of colour and joy. Some parts of the page would be darker, like some corners of my soul, some would have terrifying creatures lurking in the shadows, thorns and slime, venom and fangs. Tiny spiders would knit artisan webs between the branches of exotic trees. Huge flowers wo...

  I always wondered How would I know for sure what is my dream and what am I supposed to do in life? Follow your curiosities was the answer I received. And I did. I fought so many times and years against my curiosities and dreams, I made many efforts to push them aside, all the ideas of small things I liked and wanted to do. For what purpose was I procrastinating living? I was so determined to achieve a goal, save money, and buy land, that I completely neglected also the things that would not have cost me anything to do, like running. I love running. 3-5 km runs with good energetic music in my ears and a Nike run app to track my progress. I neglected it as I neglected reading books and drawing and singing. I became a very flat person, grey and empty of energy. One decision had turned my life completely. I left all behind and started all from scratch like a newborn, with a complete reset of my goals, intentions, destinations, beliefs, habits, and diet. I got the chance to build my l...

  Change starts with a question  that opens up a space for an answer to come The way to change is always from within, we can never make others change. The only way is when they come to us with a question. A question is much like a prayer, it opens up a container in you with a space where you are ready to receive the answer. In inspiring others to ask, you plant in them the first step to change. You cannot teach something to someone who does not have an open container as a question to receive your answer. A good teacher succeeds in inspiring curiosity so the student starts asking questions. So how do you teach adolescents about life? I received an opportunity to teach a class of young ladies 14-17 years old. I was pondering on the question of what knowledge I could share that would best impact those young women. Where is the beginning? Where do I start? When I think of myself at that age, what is the one thing if I would have been tought that would have saved me from dark exper...

  Defence mechanisms and inner blocks: Our mind is like a huge field of grass, separated and divided into small pastures by barbed wire and posts, some are loose so they can be easily crossed, and some are wired in multiple layers of wire, some even have stone walls around them. The wire and walls are where our defence mechanisms are active. They can be inner blocks of beliefs that others have convinced us to adopt. When in a relationship with an abuser we see these wires all over, saying “You can’t go there, can’t look there, can’t think of this, and can’t feel like that”. So we are restrained to one small pasture where it’s relatively safe to exist. That is why free journaling comes in handy, as it is a cross-border association-based activity. I’ll explain: Free journaling, means you write whatever comes to your mind at the moment it hits your thought, even if it means stopping in mid-sentence and following the immediate thought, even if it is nonsense or repeating words, or just...

  20.6.2021 My Daily Question 1. How to wake up feeling better, with motivation, high energy, and more easily? How to get rid of my morning anxiety? My Daily Attempt To Answer Myself Possible reasons why am I feeling unwell in the morning: 1. Lack of sleep and/or going to sleep late - as after 11pm Things to try out: Setting a fixed time to go to bed - 23:00 is the latest I can stretch. Setting a reasonable time to wake up - 8 hours of sleep is probably the least my body wishes to get to function well. It means waking up at 7:00. Problems: My husband is getting upset if I go to sleep before him, he doesn't have a set routine, although he gets up at 5:00 each day. How to stay asleep without feeling guilty he had less sleep than I had? I usually set my husband's clothes and stuff for the day in the morning. I love waking up early at sunset, but it means to put up with 6 hours' sleep. Solutions to consider: Talk to him about my wish to set fixed bedtimes, explain to him the im...

I would like to write about languages. Yesterday I used an expression that I would have liked to correct in the following way. Languages are a passion of mine, or I have passion for languages - would be the right way to say it. Yesterday I was nervous, as at all times when I speak any language other than Hebrew. I always get nervous, even when I speak my mother tongue - Russian. I believe that keeping the language pure and correct, not mixing it with other languages or slang, means respecting the language you choose to use. Clear and clean speaking is a valuable acquired skill. My mother was a book editor and language corrector in Moscow for ten years. As long as I remember she had kept her speaking clear and correct. She used to read a lot to me, in my childhood and youth, and she always kept her diction perfect. Each time she was uncertain of the right pronunciation or meaning of a word, she would open a heavy and old dictionary by Ozhegov, and she would explore it. If there was a mi...

 This is a common categorization of aspects of life when you work on self improvement: Health Wealth Relationships Passion Contribution Spirituality Purpose and Mindset When Mindset is the origin and base of all change. Here is a fun quiz to measure your mindset level: QUIZ